Pet Peeves

Do you ever have those days where every little thing bugs you? Especially your pet peeves? Today is one of those days. You try not letting those little things get to you, but enough of them happen where it just becomes one huge annoying problem. I spend I don't know how much time cleaning our apartment, and once it's clean I feel like I accomplished a huge task and I'm so proud of myself. But living with 2 guys, it doesn't stay clean for long. Ryan (my boyfriend) is usually pretty good about keeping things picked up, but a lot of the time I find my self doing most of the work & picking up after him. Like the bathroom, we have a dirty clothes hamper in the bathroom, but he insists on leaving his clothes on the floor instead of taking 2 steps to the hamper! And the kitchen (which I'm sure most people know is the hardest thing to keep clean in a house because so much time is spent there) I keep up on the dishes, keeping the counters cleaned off (and not just a sorry excuse for clean, I mean scrubbing them down, disinfecting, the works) and the list goes on... So our kitchen is spotless last night and Ryan decides to make poppy seed muffins, and of course me knowing that there is going to be a mess to clean tell him before he makes them to scrub the kitchen counters off, throw aware any trash & rinse off the dishes & put them in the dishwasher. Does he do any of it? No! So I come home from work and that's the first thing I do. And women that have boyfriends or husbands know what that it's frustrating picking up after them because they aren't your kids, they're your boyfriends or spouse! So shouldn't they be old enough and courteous enough to do it on their own? Ryan knows all of this, I tell him a good 100 times a week I feel like his mom, and it will sink in for a day or two, but by the end of the week, I'm back to the same arguing, the same fighting, and the same "picking up after a 2 year old" habits. Don't get me wrong, I love him with all my heart, but a girl has gotta rest! And then it seems with all the bickering at home, it somehow flows into your work life, and every customer & every complaint seem so ridiculous you just want to smack the person! Which I'm sure that this is a ridiculous complaint as well where someone out there would love to smack me compared to their frustrations :) but then you start thinking, what about other peoples problems? There are people homeless & struggling to keep their jobs & provide for their families, there are people that don't have those significant others to bicker & fight with, and at the end of the day, even though every little pet peeve may still be bugging you, you have to set those feelings aside and think about other people with problems worth worrying & fighting about. But don't forget, even if your problems don't compare to others, sometimes there are just those days where you have to be a little selfish & take some time for yourself to write & complain about the little things in life bothering you. We all have something to give, and we all have something to complain about.

My Name

You Are Powerful and Determined

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

Happily Ever After...

Every little girl dreams of finding her prince charming. They wait for him to come riding up on a white horse and sweep them off their feet. They wait for their very own Cinderella story. Every so often we are lucky enough to be swept away by our very own prince. We are lucky enough to experience the love we see in fairy tales, and we are lucky enough to be able to hold onto that love for longer than midnight. But we have to remember the beginning of the fairy tale too. How Cinderella had to go through the rough times before she was able to get to the good times. And unlike Cinderella, our rough times aren't just at the beginning of the movie, they are all throughout the happily ever after. But isn't it worth it for love? Aren't the hard times worth it for the good times? I think they are. When we look for our fairy tale, we think that when we find it, it's only going to be the amazing ending at the end of the movie, but it's not. And even if it were, wouldn't that be too boring? Never experiencing the bad to know the good? Never having a fight and realizing at the end of the day you were wrong, and growing from those experiences? I like being able to learn and grow in my relationship from the rough times, and being able to live each day without regret and enjoy the good things in my life, especially being with someone who loves me unconditionally. I love being able to share my day with him, and how he listens to what I'm saying, how we can both just sit down and have a bowl of popcorn, disagree on a movie, and end up watching the one I want because he just wants me to be happy. I love having the support from him to pursue my dreams and to make the most of each day. To love each other for who we are and who we want to be, what we will pursue, and what we will accomplish together, and apart. That's my happily ever after.... but it's not over yet. :)

Soundtrack to your life

If you can hear me And know that im right here, I heard your heartbeat It took away the fear, Cuz my life is sliding I tried to ride the wave, It came down crashing, it's time to start again... Backwards to go forward, Left at every corner, Been there and back again... And when the music ends... Your life is a flashback, A question, a photograph, A statement, a story, a struggle, A chance to laugh... Cuz if you don't laugh you cry, A last crescendo when you die, So hit the rewind and listen It's the playback, The soundtrack to your life. First step, your last breath Everythings been planned, There's questions and answers You'll never understand. I hold on, but let go, I give you room to breath, Remember the best things Will never mind to change. Starting at the ending, It won't break, while your bending Been there, and back again And when the music ends... Your life is a flashback, A question, a photograph A statement, a story, a struggle, A chance to laugh... Cuz if you don't laugh you cry, A last crescendo when you die So hit the rewind and listen It's the playback, The soundtrack to your life. The soundtrack to your life, And it can fly like a burden It may be different than yours but, you got the same Beat a broken back for more, I'll be dragging my own ass off the floor. I've thrown my self right in and whats the point if you don't live in? If you can hear me And know that im right here I heard your heartbeat It took away the fear Your life is a flashback, A question, a photograph A statement, a story, a struggle, A chance to laugh... Cuz if you don't laugh you cry, A last crescendo when you die So hit the rewind and listen It's the playback, The soundtrack to your life.

A Hero

What is a hero? Is it someone you look up to when you're a child? Is it friends? Family? Or is it the men and women who fight for our freedom every day and give their lives so we can have better ones?

The definition of a hero is: a man/woman of distinguished courage or ability, admired for his/her brave deeds and noble qualities.

When I think of a hero, I think of friends, family, and the men and women that give their lives and fight for our freedom. A hero doesn't just have to be someone who is specifically acknowledged by a medal or something to that degree, but someone who is courageous, someone you admire for their bravery. Some people may think that the word "Hero" is tossed around too lightly, but what's wrong with seeing your friends and family, and those who fight every day for freedom as heroes? There is nothing wrong with that. As a little girl my hero was the little mermaid just because she was half fish! ;) But today, the people I call my heroes are the people that are there for me every day, who love me for me, who don't dwell on mistakes I've made, and who don't let cancer bring them down, but make them stronger, and especially to every man and every woman that have or are fighting for us just to make sure we have a life full of choices and freedom to make those choices, to all of these heroes...

Thank you.